Hi y’all! I know I have been super bad at blogging haven’t I? I’m such a naughty trans blogger. I should be fired from my job! Oh hey, wait, nobody hired me, nobody is paying me, and I am the CEO of this here venture…… so I suppose no matter how poorly I do this job that I can’t ever be fired huh? No, but I could lose my readers, and for that I am sorry. Is there anyone here that was here way back, back, back say about 10 years ago or so who read that I make absolutely NO guarantees about my blogging schedule? No? Well, then let me take this moment to reiterate…….. I have no set blogging schedule, sorry if that bums you out!
Anywho…. wanna know one of the scariest and best things I have ever done for myself? Voice Therapy! It was in January 2019 that I decided to give voice therapy a whirl. If you don’t know, I am teacher and my voice is my career. Without it, I would not be able to do my job. Thus it is kind of important to me, however I think the reason I was so terrified of trying to do voice therapy was this nagging question, what if it doesn’t work. I was super terrified of the idea that possibly I would not ever be able to do anything with my voice.
As well I have noticed this really annoying thing about myself…… I will ignore things that bug me, all the while insisting that they do not bother me. It is a defense mechanism. If I convince myself that it doesn’t actually bug me then I don’t have to do anything about it, right? Sadly, throughout most of my transition I have realized that is just not true. I can very easily hide from that which is hurting me, but I can’t hide from the effects of being hurt. Weird? Maybe. Basically I have begun to see that throughout my life I have ignored the fact that I am trans, and I desperately needed to transition. I thought I could deny it, and be happy. But that is where I have been hugely wrong. I can indeed ignore it, but I can’t be happy at the same time. Life just does not work that way. At least for me.
Voice was one of those big things. How do I know? Well it has been over a year since I completed my initial voice therapy, and since that time I have never been misgendered when people are relying solely on my voice. And that has felt absolutely amazing! Seriously. It is almost indescribable.
Recently I have realized I am still kind of stressing about my voice. If you don’t know, I am perfectionist. I want things to be the way that I want them to be, regardless. This is the stress and pressure I place upon myself once I realize that something is actually bugging the shit out of me. I don’t like being irritated and annoyed with the world. When I realize that my misplaced anger is coming from something that is within my ability to control, well then, I’m going to at least attempt to address it.
Which means that I am back in voice therapy. Happily! Super happily! Seriously. I have continued my work on my voice over the last year, but I feel as though I could benefit of a professional. Which is why I turned back to the awesome woman who I worked with initially, Heather Gross. She is absolutely fabulous, seriously. I really like working with her. She is fun, enthusiastic, supportive, and smart as a whip! Heather’s ability to hear, diagnose, and modify a voice is amaze-balls! Super amaze-balls! I have been so super impressed with her. She is probably about half my age, but she is a someone I admire deeply, and is actually a role model for me in many ways.
I am writing this particular post today to help advertise for my awesome therapist. She is doing a FREE, yes free, voice therapy event this coming Monday. You can be anywhere in the world and join us. All you need to do is email heather at the address on the picture above. I don’t want to type it out here and have her start getting vast amounts of junk mail.
Okay, that’s it.
I hope you are all safe and healthy during these crazy times.
Wear your mask! Wash your hands!
Love you!
Love yourselves!
Love your voice!
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