1 – That I could not dress from head to toe as a woman.
2 – That I could not go in public dressed as a woman.
3 – That my friends and family would ostracize me if I told them that I dress as a woman.
4 – That everyone would know that I am a cross dresser if I: paint my nails, pierce my ears, wear female jewelry, wear female clothes.
5 – If I show my face on my blog my world will come crashing down.
A little further explanation about these things:
1 – I suppose some part of me felt that I could not do this. But guess what? I can and further more I think I do it pretty well. Oh but FYI – it took me about 5-10 years of partial dressing before I allowed myself to do it from head to toe. One thing that stopped me – I would have to shave my goatee, which I justified for years that I could not do because then I would too young. I look back now and think ‘gawd I used ridiculous excuses.’
2 – Another thing that took me years to get over. Sure I could dress as a woman at home, but there is no way I could go out in public. I thought people would laugh and point and circle around me taunting me like I was a small child on an school playground. And those would be the small things that people would do, the big things included beating me to death because they were so offended by my audacious behavior. Well sorry brain, yet again you were wrong.
3 – I thought my wife would leave me; she hasn’t. I thought my sister would not want to speak to me; we are closer than ever. I thought my friends would think I was a freak; some great people told me this past Saturday how I have made their marriage better. Hmm, yet again I was wrong. How weird.
4 – Let me clarify – I thought everyone would know I was a cross dresser if I did those things while dressed primarily as a male. Wouldn’t you know it, I was wrong, wrong, wrong! I am still surprised by this one. Apparently after discussing it with many people none of those things tipped people off to the truth of my behavior. Wanna know what did? Yup something did tip people off to me being a cross dresser before I told them. Okay here goes – They saw the female underwear I was wearing at some point when the back of my shirt rode up. They had to see me wearing something undeniably female before they would allow themselves to think of me as a cross dresser. And I never worried about that one bit. Everything else I did worry about, I never needed to as I was quite wrong.
5 – Well, it has not been that long since I decided to do this and admittedly I am still worried about it, but so far, so good. My world has not ended yet and further more I am not really sure how it could ever cause my world to come crashing down. Oh I know there are a lot of scenarios that my mind can come up with as to how exactly this will ruin me, but I know that 90-100% of what I worry about is a bunch of BS.
I love proving my worry wrong. How about you? Have you worried about things that have never come true?
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